itz been lOng ... things hv turn oUt to be more complicated as ever.. n now.. i've moved to my new homE already .. in m'sia.. At first i thought .. u noe .. itz gonna b a disaster .. leaving my frens .. hard transport n all tat .. bt yeah .. hd to .. coz its what my family want .. itz wat my mom n dad want .. so i can't refrain .. i gotta agree to their optiOn .. bt now.. itz like .. every year .. there's always me n my frens fightin over some dump shit .. bt this year .. it was me .. n my best fren .. i can't ignore dat .. bt wat cn i do ..im juz a dum gurl juz hopin this would hv never happen .. i mean .. seriously .. frens .. love .. n things like that .. sometimes.. i feel like no one understands me .. someeimes nt even my mom.. im confuse .. i feel like i dont belong to anyone.. i don feel like i am worthy of being their fren ... or anyone special .. all i do .. was making them hurt even more .. i feel like i dont belong to anywhere i am .. my heart filled with more ignorance and more of the bad temptations .. i feel like i dont nid any friendship .. or lover .. or anything like dat .. datz wat my other side sayin ..bt myb itz true .. i pretended to be who they wanted me to be all the tyme .. sometimes i lost hope .. i dont noe hu to believe in.. rite now i feel like being alone was the best ... away........juz ..away..this would probly b the longest blog i ever written .. n there's more to tell .. bt rite now.. this is wat i wanna sae ...
Love, @ 3:51 AM
.Thursday, November 11, 2010 ♥
eh ... wat is this man ?? 2dae i gt plans .. so wat if i go out with hym .. i had a great time there.. tk kacaw hidop kaw pah !! i noe wat im doing . suker hati larh ku nk kluar ngn saper larh siol .. klu tk suker tu .. kaw nyer psl uhk !! aper .. aku desperado?? eh... come on larh .. im nt soo desperate to have one ouwkaeh .. aper?? aku jealous??? den kaw slh lh sial .. kaw nk gy ngn dier ker nk rapat ngn dier ker .. i dont care ! i don fucking shit care bout that .. i just cnt stand ur prangai ! one dae i'll stop pretending .. pretending to be ur so called "fren" lah ehk .. urgh !!!!!
Love, @ 3:31 AM
.Wednesday, November 10, 2010 ♥
so nt understandable !!
i dOn't understand myself .. really .. i bcame close again wif hym ... i guess i cnt stand it .. hehehe .. u noe y .. n then .. haiz .. one of my fren don like me being close wif hym again .. she said i change ?? was like.. wart the hell ?? well .. itz my life .. i own my life .. nt others .. i'll try my best nt to make the same mistake again .. hargh !!! i guess i shold stick to my own self .. i'll do wart my heart tells me of .. :)
Love, @ 5:49 AM
.Monday, November 1, 2010 ♥
itz been hard .. i don noe how i look into it .. some of my frens say i was being emoish .. i try to smile to my best .. bt something is missing .. something nt rite .. i don noe wat it is .. n to dat certain somebody .. i don noe .. y the hell cn't i avoid hym .. y cn't i juz ignore his msg's .. i noe .. myb i'm being a fool .. i'm scared to gv my heart again .. i 'm scared it'll happen again .. i'm scared being dumped like hell again ... im scared to being 'the boring' one .. how cn i confess ??? what should i sae ??? god ... itz soo hard .. i realise since dat dae .. i was alone ... though i hd my frens .. i still felt alone .. everytin falling apart .. things may look ouwkaeh .. bt it's not .. im juz confuse ..
Love, @ 3:05 AM
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exam results ..
yo3 !! hmm .. exam results ?? itz nt bad .. i tot i gt fail something .. bt neh .. alhamdullillah .. i pass all .. well .. at least gt 3rd in klaz .. nina gt 1st ... well .. gt to b prepared 4 'O' .. hmm .. kaki ku sudah melecet .. smlm kt camp kaki terselioh .. bdn dh cramp .. gy jgak skh nari .. adr exetended curriculum .. till 12 nov .. well ..nnti adr np nyer camp lagyk on the 12th till 14th .. dehyn pindah rumah on the 19 nov .. brng buku2 sumer dh pack .. skrng masalah nyer .. cekgu mintak file .. dh terpack .. haiz !!!!!!!!!!!!
Love, @ 2:45 AM
.Tuesday, October 26, 2010 ♥
exams ..
haiz .. don think i cn stay top in klaz .. gt a feeling its gonna b si yun ker .. saper2 uhk .. drop sak results.. everything's different .. nt like in the past .. i don noe .. myb it's affecting me like damn hell .. im trying my best nt to let it affect me .. bt u noe wart .. it'z nt working dat well .. well .. dh 2 fail .. naseb baek eng;ish pass .. nxt year struggle year .. hope i cn keep up ..
Love, @ 7:14 AM
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CHRISTALLITE !!!
Todae gt christallite home vistit.. well .. actually my group plan nk nanyi lagu smile .. bt it turns out .. NOT !! instead .. kiter nanyi lagu innocence.. well .. me .. azzi ngn ratnah uhk .. amanina maen piano .. bt i tell eu .. hancor siot nanyi .. shiverring like hell .. tapy fun uhk actually .. dpt ano ubat .. mane BINGO ngn residents kt saner .. we all hd fun .. tapy mcm ooops uhk ... tk dpt amek gmbr ker video mcm the last tyme yg kum yun joget atas stage tu .. hahah!!! best2!!! dehyn .. as usual .. aku balek.. sorang lagyk .. amek 912 .. liiiiike usual .. haiz .. mengeloh akuh .. balek.. teros mcm tertydo uhk atas katil .. hahah!! sooooooo sleeeeepy ... huhu ...!!
